selfish..

All these years i was taught, i perceived, i believed that being selfish is a sin!!
And i lived for others.. i'm not trying to look like Mother Teresa.. by telling i lived for others i meant... Adjusting with the wide attitude difference between me and my fellow mates... being there for my friends whenever they need me even if i'm busy .. acting as though i'm deaf when rude comments were ( which according to my friends is to make me a better person) spit on my face.. Remaining quiet when others invaded my space..
Today.. i screamed.. STTTOP.. STOP.. What the hell are you trying to do with me?? taking me for granted every moment.. because you know i'll be there for you always!! No! No!.. i won't let all this happen again.. what did i gain??
"if you are selfish.. then why can't i be??".. when this idea crossed i felt light at heart.. look at that.. a formula to reduce my pain. From now certain things are defenitely not going to be the way they were..
There is no more adjusting when an argument is firing up... i will not be the same deaf person when you insult me again. . . and excuse me first lemmme complete my work then i'll poke into yours (why don't you try it yourself.. buddy.. self help is the best help.. :P)
and a strong fence circling my space...
Yes i've set my mind to be selfish.. let me sin.. hey how is that a sin.. i'm living for myself... to make me happy.. to make myself comfortable... i was a sinner when i was on the other side.. now i'm an angel.. wanna disagree??? well you've all the rights to!!!!!